Letters To

Boy, I make a mean cup of coffee! Sitting here, after my walk, and shower, it's just the best. Yesterday, it was so hard for me to get up and walk, so I blew it off, but I do feel so much better when I get out and get the wind on my face before the sun comes up. Last night, we had a HUGE thunder/rain storm all up and down the Front Range. Much needed rain, and the light show was incredible. These days, anything like that makes me wonder how I will manage if some kind of storm, etc. comes up when I am walking and far from shelter. Hmm. I suppose I will get wet, and then dry off after it stops raining, or arrive eventually at a place where I can wash and dry my clothes. I am packing most things in plastic bags, just in case. So, on to today's card. The King of Fire - Creator. Again, a very appropriate card. Fire cards two days in a row, which is totally appropriate as fire represents action, and doing. Lots of that going on these days! Here is the brief quotation: "The King ...

Thursday morning. In a little while, Glena and I go up to Denver to take her to the VA for an appointment with a podiatrist. Additionally, we're also going to stop by and meet the folks I have been doing transcription for for the last several months. We are also taking loads of fresh produce to them! Here is today's card: 4 of Water, Tuning In. I like this card a lot. I like the colors, and the "mood" of it. To me it feels very calm, and calm is what I am going to need a lot of over the next few weeks. Here is the card's message: "To develop the knack of taking a distance from the mind is one of the greatest blessings. It is what meditation is all about, really--not chanting a mantra, or repeating an affirmation, but just watching, as if the mind belongs to somebody else. You are ready to take this distance now, and to watch the show without getting caught up in the drama. Indulge yourself in the simple freedom of Tuning In whenever you can, and the knack of ...

It's August 2, 6:46 a.m. as I write from Colorado. In a month, September 3, I leave for Spain. It's becoming more real by the day. There is so much to do, and I am constantly thinking and re-thinking. Of course, this week I am having my period. I suppose that is what is first and foremost on my mind, where will I be able to take care of those needs, etc. Once again, I am so grateful for having gone on the Vision Quest before taking this longer trip because of everything that I dealt with there. Somehow, I will manage. That's just all there is to it. Not doing this isn't an option. It has nothing to do with what anyone else might think, or even the loss of the money on the plane ticket...it's that I would have let myself down more profoundly than I ever have before in my life. And I can't, I won't, live with that. So, I'm going. I realize I may not finish, due to time, or other unforeseen circumstances. That is all right. At least I will have gone and mad...

Two more days left in July, then August, and then I'm on my way. It seems almost impossible that I'm actually going to do this, but I know I am. In the last few days, the "real world" has been trying to encroach on me; real world meaning in most cases "financial reality". This past year, I have been so blissful because I've had a pretty decent bank account, and haven't had to work full time. This will not be the case when I get back. I am working to make that all right. I am working on preparing various options to explore without letting the situation overwhelm me. And, still, be open to whatever happens on the Road, to who I will meet, the places I will see, everything. Today, after my walk, I drew a card from my favorite Tarot deck, the Osho Zen deck. I've worked with this deck for years, and it is completely amazing to me how accurate the cards are, or how "on target" the message is when you pick one. Today, my pick was 6 of Rainbows...