Counting Down




Two more days left in July, then August, and then I'm on my way. It seems almost impossible that I'm actually going to do this, but I know I am. In the last few days, the "real world" has been trying to encroach on me; real world meaning in most cases "financial reality". This past year, I have been so blissful because I've had a pretty decent bank account, and haven't had to work full time. This will not be the case when I get back. I am working to make that all right. I am working on preparing various options to explore without letting the situation overwhelm me. And, still, be open to whatever happens on the Road, to who I will meet, the places I will see, everything.




Today, after my walk, I drew a card from my favorite Tarot deck, the Osho Zen deck. I've worked with this deck for years, and it is completely amazing to me how accurate the cards are, or how "on target" the message is when you pick one. Today, my pick was 6 of Rainbows - Compromise, seen here above. Once again, the cards give me something to think about. Indeed, what I was just saying about how to manage my life/finances when I return from the Road.
The message of the card is: "The two figures on this card remind us of the sleazy and conspiratorial situations we can get into when we compromise our own truth. It is one thing to meet another halfway, to understand a point of view different from our onw and work towards a harmony of the opposing forces. It is quite another to "cave in" and betray our own truth." This cuts directly to the question of what am I going to do when I get back? Right now, I am working part time for a great medical transcription company and really enjoy it. I know I will have to work for years and years, that's just a given. Retirement for me is not an option and I am okay with that. But it's HOW I work that is important to me, and I have discovered that I LOVE working from home. Sooo, I can see if these folks have more work for me; I can apply to national transcription companies, do local fliers, etc. and see what happens.
But mostly, I can have faith that all will work out as it needs to. My basic life expenses are quite few, actually. What has me more worried is my credit card debt, and if truth were told, I have enough money in various accounts that I COULD pay them off it I wanted to. I'd have to pay penalties, etc., but I COULD do it. So, no worries. Keep the faith, keep walking, keep going forward. "All will be well, all will be well, all manner of thing will be well." --Dame Julian of Norwich.
Blessings of uncertainty to you all,
Crone

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Reluctance

Tomorrow (Labor Day) it will be one full year since I left here to go on my Camino journey. A day does not go by when I am not walking somewhere on that Way in Spain. A day does not go by when I do not think of the people I met there. So, why have I not finished writing about my "adventure"? I can't seem to answer that question to my own satisfaction. I could say it's lack of time, but I manage to post on my other blog at least a couple of times a week, so that's not a good excuse. I think, rather, that somewhere, down deep, I believe that if I don't finish writing about the journey, then the journey won't be over. When, in fact, I know that the journey is FAR from over. I know this. But it doesn't stop the reluctance. Another possibilty I've thought of is that am now at the point of documenting my trip where my foot pain started to interfere with my walking, and where I began to take more bus rides, and where I made the difficult decision...
Read more

Gemilas en Burgos - Part I

Image
After Doro and I split up from Ingeborg, we walked across a busy road towards the cathedral, whose spires we could see not far away. In fact, just about anywhere in Burgos you can see the spires of the cathedral, even though it is a fairly large city. We walked through a long, tree-lined paseo, where the trees were so dense and dark overhead that the street lights were on underneath even though it was early afternoon. As we reached the end, we rounded a corner which would take us into the man plaza and we saw what was probably a mid-range hotel, so we decided to duck in and try our luck. As soon as we entered the small lobby and the man behind the desk took a look at our obvious pilgrim attire, I knew what the answer would be--no rooms available. No trouble. I was certainly not going to push to stay were pilgrims were obviously not wanted, so we headed out and back towards the plaza. Doro had a map, and so we eventually got to a church-run alberque that would open around 1 p.m. ...
Read more

Gemilas en Burgos - part 2

Image
I’m After my nap, as with all pilgrims, it seems, I decided to talk a walk.  I laughed about this a lot with many fellow pilgrims, that we walked all day, arrived hot, sweaty and exhausted to a place of refuge and once we had the trail dust washed off of us, what did we do?  More walking!  But, what else does one do if one wants to see a bit of the city?  I tried to find an internet cafe, but the place was packed and the woman running it was a complete grouch.  I decided not to waste my time.  Instead, I wandered a little bit around the hostal, looking at the architechture, and trying to place myself in relation to the cathedral.  Little by little, I worked my way back toward the cathedral, taking some lesser traveled streets, enjoying the cooler air, getting my bearings.  At no time during this trip did I ever feel lost or out of place.  I'm sure the walking stick, well worn clothes, dusty shoes and big hat gave me away, but the entire time ...
Read more